First Week of School

My first week of school is over and I am so tired. I keep asking myself what am I doing here and what was I thinking? Why am I so damn stubborn? I should have just chosen something simple instead of Chemistry.

I was really very traumatised on my first day of school when I realised that I had forgotten the very basic functional groups in Organic Chemistry. Alkanes? Alkenes? Benzenes? Saturated bonds? Unsaturated bonds? To think I've always been interested in Organic Chemistry and claims it's not difficult at all. After that lesson, I had the strong urge to just pack up, go home (the one in Singapore) and forget about everything. Why do I have to insist on having a degree in the first place? I should have just listened to my grandma, aunts and uncles - find a guy, marry him and settle down.

After calming down a bit, I remembered everything. No, I didn't suddenly remember all the functional groups in Organic Chemistry. In fact, I haven't start my revision yet but I'll get to it soon. I remembered why I removed myself from my comfort zone and came all the way across the ocean to a foreign country that is experiencing winter while the rest of the world is having summer. I want a degree so that I can do what I want to do. There are some job opportunities that are open to degree holders and not diplomas. I want to be able to earn more than what I used to earn. And I always tell my aunts and uncles that if I have a higher education, I'll end up with a guy of equivalent or higher qualifications. Haha...

Everybody, don't worry when you see this entry. I should be able to handle these stuff. I'm just whining and letting out my emotions. At the most I'll just start knocking on professors' doors and ask for private tutoring. The lecturers here are quite helpful. They always remind us to let them know if we can't handle anything. It's not all a bed of roses here. I'm not just enjoying life and having fun here. Oh, think I have to warn everyone something. Please do not ever let me hear you say that education system in Australia is really slack and I'm just having fun and enjoying life here. That's so not the truth and if I'm not in the right mood, I might just blow up at you!